Is it Love or Lust?

This question came to my mind when I met this guy 3 months ago.
After 4 to 5 time meeting up with him, I ask myself,
'Am I falling in love with this guy or he's just a sex toy-human satisfying my sexual desire? Do he feel the same way as mine?'
After 2 bad relationships I had in the past, I am very careful with what I feel now. Afraid and so protective to my feelings and trying to avoid encountering the same thing, I mean, the emotional experience I had with those two ass holes hit my life. So, I gave myself a time to think and focused on answering those questions regarding with that man and what I feel for him before meeting him again on the 6th time.


There's a big difference between Love and Lust. Not only on your own interpretation but also the definition of either words. Let's begin with Love, everyone knows about this word, but we all have the different interpretations/opinions about Love. We define or interpret it either the wrong way or the right way, the hurtful one or the Happiness, weakness or source of strength, but whatever idea you have in mind about love, we always end up with the idea of a person making you feel and interpret love in many different ways. Either crap or reasonable one. How about Lust? same as love(in terms of how we define it and I'm NOT saying they're both the same in meaning), we define it in many ways, maybe, in terms of power, life, sex or any other things. But in this case, it's obviously the-lust-in-terms-of-sex. So, this is the time I asked the help of Mr. Dictionary. In addition from what I know, Mr. Dictionary told me that Lust is an intense sexual desire or appetite or uncontrolled or illicit sexual desire and also a passionate or overmastering desire or craving. A SEXy definition, indeed. :)


One Wednesday night, when I was trying to catch my sleep but couldn't get it, the question-that-I-cant-answer, the Love or Lust thing, I had in my mind hit my head again. So, I decided to squeeze my brain to answer it before meeting him the coming Saturday night that time. After hours of thinking, I still can't find a reasonable and unbiased answer. So I switched on the radio and listen to the music and wait till I get to sleep.
After a half an hour of tuning in to the radio at exactly 3:am, I realized, I forgot to ask my heart and what it feels about it. So, I asked myself again but this time using my heart and brain, 'Is it Love or Lust?'
I found the answer, Finally! And it's both! A little SEXy but passionate feeling towards him. I have this sexual desire for him BUT ON TOP OF THAT I LOVE HIM without a doubt not only for sexual reason but also for what he really is for me. :)

how's Ireland?

sitting on the couch at my mom's house here in Dublin. it's been a week now since I arrived. we tour around the city the whole week and it's been amazing. it's great so far and hope will went well. i'm with my mom and two lil siblings. i thought when i still in the Philippines i'll feel homesickness but i was wrong(i forgot i'm used to it, the "being far from my parents/family" thing)...

Philippine Independence Day

I know it's kinda late to post this blog since the Philippine Independence Day is June 12, which was yesterday, but would like to show my gratitude and respect to all the people behind it and say that I'm "Proud to be a Filipino" even in a little way like this. Ating iwagayway ang ating Bandila!

Philippine 1st declaration of independence (1896)

Filipino (KKK) revolutionary forces under Andres Bonifacio (The Father of KATIPUNAN) who first proclaim the 1st Philippine Independence Day in 1896, two years after Gen. Emilio Aguinaldo continued the proclamation of the said independence day as the official Independence Day of the Philippines dated June 12, 1898.

Philippine declaration of independence (1898)

On June 12, 1898, prior to the formal conclusion of the Spanish-American War, Filipino revolutionary forces under General Emilio Aguinaldo proclaimed the sovereignty and independence of the Philippine Islands from the colonial rule of Spain. The declaration, however, was not recognized by Spain or the United States, and was not generally recognized by other nations. The Spanish government ceded the Philippines to the United States in the 1898 Treaty of Paris, in consideration for an indemnity for Spanish expenses and assets loss.

Saturday Morning Blog!

What a lovely morning! It's Saturday morning, May 29, 2010. And here I am doing some blogs, having a hot coffee and a hot pandesal and still waiting for the call of Irish consulate for my Irish Visa Interview. Am I being excited? I guess I am, It's my first time traveling in Europe and on top of that, I'm gonna visit my Mom and siblings there. I wonder what kind of place Ireland is. Are the people friendly there? Well, goodluck to me..but first, need to pass the visa interview and have my visa. After my breakfast, I wonder what kind of stuff I'm going to do, something productive. How bout cleaning the entire house? geez that would be a very tiring work to do.. Washing my clothes and my brother's and my friend's? that would be fine, but..what else? Going to the mall? that would be awesome! avery nice idea! .....but that's not something productive to do..haiz! I guess need to write a list of work-to-do today..well, talk to you later! :) Have a happy, smiling and never tiring saturday!

Still Summer : May 22, 2010

WOAH! The water is cold! love it! Taken in Bantangas, Philippines. I really did have a lot of fun there with my friends. Hope to come back to that place again.

Jumpstart your Career:

Map Out A Plan!

Realizing your goal requires a workout plan and an end game. "If you don't have a plan, it's terribly easy not to stick to anything and end up where the current takes you," notes Richard Templar, author of The Rules Of Work . Study your chosen industry and create the steps needed to make it to the position you want to occupy. Work out how many steps it takes from junior to executive level , what you want to gain from each step, and how each step is made possible. Ultimately, this career workout plan should lead you to your final goal. I may not be successful right now to tell you this things but, I am following this strategy to make myself successful and to grab my desired career. Just want to share it with you who needs guidelines or strategies to make their goals reachable and to have a good and cool Career. Well, God Bless to us! :)

What Not To Get Noticed For

You don't want to be a wallflower... But you really don't want to attract attention for any of this mortifying behavior.

* Dancing like nobody's watching--- except everybody is watching because you look like a crazed baboon that's on fire.

* Winning the drinking competition you'd been having with a bunch of frat guys before losing the bot=puking-all-over-the-floor competition that you had been having with your stomach.

* Cramming as many mini quiches and spring rolls in a blanket as possible into your clutch for a late-night snack.

* Doing a head stand while wearing a baby-doll dress and no panties.

* Actually, just doing a head stand, period.

*Bursting into tears anytime a guy you're talking to excuses himself to go grab another drink.

* Screaming "Don't you touch my man!" at any girl who's touching any man.

* Walking out of the bathroom with your dress tucked into your panties.

*Flying into a homicidal rage when the bartender gives you a full-calorie beer instead of a light beer.